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The real deal?

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 15:24:20 GMT

Last night Nate and I talked. He said that he is goin to change his bad behaviors, hopefully he sticks to it! We went to eat at Paradiso last night it was pretty good as far as mexican food for here LOL. Nate told me that sun is "build your own bloody mary" day at tgif and I was like we should go he was like yeah we can do that, so yay. I was like I'll bring my chalula haha. Then mon sushi night is back on! We didnt get to go this mon cuz the folks are in Florida till fri :( Tomorrow night I made plans to go out for girls night with Jeana I am excited! Hopefully it's a good time, I'm sure it will be. Jeana is a cool chick she's one of the people I can actually see myself bein good friends with. Some of the other people here seem kinda fake like they are nice to me cuz I'm Moleys girl or cuz their friends like me or something Idunno, whatevs. Then there are those who like try to have stuff in common with me or something but they still seem to judge. I guess it's like that anywhere you go though. I'm used to it, it's not like this is the first time I have ever moved somewhere new LOL! I still miss my homies though, lots! I already know I can be my crazy weirdo self around them ya know. Some people here are kinda I dont know surprised or taken back by how ghetto I am sometimes. Like I mean it's kinda weird here they dont have much for color except the native americans so like I'll be talkin bout whatever and they are like did she just say that OMG. It's funny I think cuz thats just me and I aint trying to offend anyone and my homies would know that but the people here dont quite understand that. So like for example I was talkin to this girl christie and we were talkin bout food and I said that I like chalula on my eggs and hash browns and she was like um ok and I was like I know here people think I'm weird for that cuz that is totally something that black and mexican folks do and as I said it Christie starts looking around to like make sure there werent any black folks near by (cuz there sure as hell aint no mexicans, it's too cold up here haha) LOL what?! seriously. If there were then I totally would have pulled them into the convo and she prolly woulda pooped in her panties. It's just weird to me that I get looks when I talk normal about normal stuff but it's different up here. Not that I am goin to change cuz that sure as hell aint gonna happen but I miss bein able to talk the way I am used to. I say stuff in spanish sometimes not even realizing I do it and Nate is the only one who knows what I said I may as well be speaking chinese around here LOL the looks I get like what did you just call me hahaha Well these folks should just learn spanish fo real :) Not gonna happen but like I said I'm not gonna change. I prolly wont use spanish as much just cuz I wont be hearing it and it'll fade to the back of my mind but still I wish it wouldnt. Oh yeah at the restaraunt last night they were totally playing spanish music it was sooooo awesome you dont realize how much you miss stuff like that till you hear it again. Lola was totally beggin the whole time to get outta the booth and dance! So when dinner was over I let her dance and I danced a lil bit and it was so awesome I need to get me some spanish cds LOL. Anyway my coffee is callin me so more later. Love peace and chicken grease!

Lazy day

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 17:12:13 GMT

Today is lazy day cuz I dont want to do a damn thing! I need to give JJ a bath but I got all day to do that. I think I am just goin to chill and reflect on life cuz my head is spinning and I cant seem to make it stop or even let up. I cant even concentrate on my book which is super sad cuz it's a good book! Anyway it's another cold day in Biz, I hear that it's super warm in CO what I wouldnt give to be there right now Gah. For more reasons than just the weather! Man I am totally starting to understand why people up here drink alot LOL it's depressing to have so much winter! I just want it to warm up even just enough that I can go outside for a couple hours! Spring where u at yo! So it's march now wow I cant believe it! The end of this month I will have my bridesmaid dress, I'm excited! I need to get shoes still which I am excited about but not looking forward to I dont know why I usually enjoy shopping but I dont know maybe it's just the state I am in who knows not me. So the lil tooth in JJs mouth is comin in more everyday! He just drools and drools Haha it's like havin one of those really drooly dogs LOL it is all over gross, good thing it's my kid hahaha! So I am really really missing my fam! Like bad!! I knew it was goin to be hard moving up here and not bein able to see them all the time but it's been like almost 4 months and that is just too long. And it just makes it so much worse with all the shit thats goin on here. Oh oh so anyway last night i had a dream about Stone, can we say weird! Yeah and I think the dream was telling me something so I need to meditate and focus more on my inner workings of my mind b/c I know there's answers up there somewhere! Well I am goin to go, more later

New day

Thu, 26 Feb 2009 18:08:46 GMT

Alright so Nate found out the other day that we cant get the boat cuz he doesnt have enough credit history. Which I dont understand b/c he can get pre approved for $170,000 and buy a house but he cant buy a stupid boat that cost like 20 grand really?! Anywho I have been kicking my own butt doin the Jillian Micheals Dvd and I feel like I'm losing weight and when I look in the mirror I look like I'm losing weight and yet my jeans beg to differ, Damn jeans! I need to buy a scale! This mornin I woke up at like 3:30a and couldnt sleep so at 4 I watched an hour of the real world then at 5 I did and hour of yoga. I can tell I am more flexible and I have more endurance but like I said my clothes are not being too kind to my enthusiasm(sp?) We've been thinking that JJ is cutting teeth but we weren't too sure. Well today I was lookin and he is for sure getting his two bottom front teeth! I cant believe it! I was just readin that our nephew Oliver got a stationary walker thingy , JJ got one of those I think like a month or so ago and he loves it too! He will spend like an hour at a tome just spinning and checking out all the lil toy things on it it's awesome! I swear yesterday I heard him say Lola I doubt he did but it so sounded like it :) Lola is still crazy! But she loves hangin with her lil bro which is soooo awesome! She reads to him and sings to him and stuff it's too f'n cute! Mom got her a lil kid computer that helps them learn letters and numbers and stuff. She's started actually playing with it and she can identify almost all the letters in the alphabet I'm so proud! I bought this babys first signs Dvd a while so lola has been learnin new signs and she has been helping me show JJ the signs for soem stuff like "more" and mom and dad and easy things liek that it's so awesome! So Nate went to Denver yesterday with some buddies of his cuz they are goin to Nuggets games. They went to the Nuggies Hawks game last night and they are goin to the Nuggies Lakers tomorrow night. I am so Jealous! I wanna go to a Nuggies game and I really really just want to go to Denver! But I guess I better get a job so I can afford it! I just want to get settled into our own house and our own routine before I get a job so I know when I can work ya know. God I wish we would get a house already! Nate said since we cant get the boat that he might buy me a car I was like " I'm ok with that!!! " :) That would be super duper if he would buy me a car cuz then I might be able to go somewhere once in a while since he always takes my car to work!Then maybe I wont be such a shut in LOL It's getting closer to spring and teh anticipation is killing me! I just want it to be warm , Last night it snowed like 5-6 inches :( so sad. I mean it's good for the wildlife and the earth and stuff cuz they haven't had this much snow in like 10yrs but I'm so cold anad tired and blah! Where are you spring time why can't I find you HAHA Anyway I hope I get a new car and I cant wait for my next netflix to come in the mail :) More later

Today

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 22:37:22 GMT

So last night was good! I had two firsts, I had eel for the 1st time and I also had caviar for the 1st time! Surprised to say that they are both ok I didnt think I would like them but they were not bad! Sushi is awesome I love it! Today we went to the store finally! I have been trying to get to the store for like a week but everyone has so many plans all the time. So we are goin to dinner tonight I dont know where but if the folks give Lola the choice it's gonna be Space Aliens or as Lola likes to call it Space Baliens LOL. So this commercial just reminded me I was watching this marathon of Secret Life of the American Teenager and sad to say that I am kinda addicted now. Like I need another show to be addicted to HAHA. So Nate was talking about prolly buying the weatherby way house. It's the one that is like 170 and its really spacious but everything needs updated So we want to offer 155 but we'll see if they'll go for that. We were also talking about putting Lola into montasori school Nate knows a chick that owns one. It's basically like a headstart school super focused on learning. I dont know how much it cost but I am excited! Also Nate said he's gonna start taking her to swimming lessons at the Y! So much to think abotu and plan! Plus Nate is talking bout how much we are gonna be on the boat, He said I can start a "crew" like take a bunch of girls out on the boat with me liek one night a week and just cruise the river HAHA I was like I dont even know how to drive a boat let alone on the river! He was like you'll learn, it's easy. Whatever I am scared there are sand bars everywhere that are below water so you cant see them and you could so easily hit one and beach the boat and ruin the rotor and everything else! Anyway I have alot to think about so more later.

Yay sushi night

Tue, 24 Feb 2009 00:40:10 GMT

So this weekend was busy busy. We went to eat on sat then Nate had to work that night. Then yesterday we went and looked at a couple houses. Goodness it is so tiring looking at house after house after house grrrr! The houses out here are so weird, I dont know maybe it's just me but there are alot of split entries and tuck unders which I didnt even know what the heck that was before trying to buy a house! Alot of the houses have really small cramped upstairs and huge awesome downstairs, or vice versa in the case of one of the houses we looked at yeasterday. Buuuuuuut tonight is sushi night! Omg so we decided that every mon night Nate and I are goin to go to East 40 restaraunt and eat sushi, because it is soooooooooo yummy! They have these spider rolls that we had last time that are so good they have sprouts and avacado and all kinds of other yummy stuff. Oh and today I watched regis eat sea urchin sushi yuck! and he ate some octopus raw from chef marimoto! Anyway JJ has been fussy fussy I think he is getting teeth cuz he keeps knawing the crap out of everything. And he says dada now that lil stink always with the dada first it's just not fair I tell ya! I keep saying mama mama to him but nothin yet darn! Anyway Nate just got home so it's sushi time!!! More later

Well well well

Sat, 21 Feb 2009 05:12:00 GMT

So I guess I am the one who is goin to be updating like every day LOL. Last night we went to the "Page" and it was pretty fun. Nate got soooooo waisted and then had to be at work at 7am poor guy I told him not to get so drunk but it's not my hangover HAHA. So I was talkin to some people here about St pattys since I cant make it out to CO. Found out that they dont do a parade :( But my friend Ashliegh said she has a tradition that she always does so we might go that path. And Easton said that he will fall off the wagon to do St Pattys with us yay! I dunno if Nate is gonna work so it might be like a girls day with Easton hehe. It kinda sux that Bobby doesnt drink cuz it would totally be fun to hang with him too! But he'll prolly be watchin the page anyway. So anyway we had fun and I found out that like everyone there has a FB I was like really? And Jeana was all what you have a Face Book and you havent added me as a friend yet! I was like I didnt realize yall were dorks like me hahaha. So then this mornin I spent an hour and 1/2 waking nate up to go to work LOL. Then i guess some of the girls from the page and Nates dads and his lunch crew all ended up having lunch at Nates work hahaha. Papa came home and said Nate was looking pretty rough and the girls coudlnt believe that he actually made it to work cuz they saw him at closing and he was faced LOL. I had a lot to drink but I barely got a buzz yeah I've built my tolerence back up apparently! Which I guess that's a good thing if I plan on lasting through st pattys :) Today was long but I am getting far in this book and I just want to keep reading to find out what happens next! Tomorrow is sat and nate doesnt work till night so we all get to hang out in the mornin yay! OMG we had A&B Pizza tonight for dinner and they have this taco pizza that is the shizz, I cant eat less than 5 pieces, yeah no less than 5 pieces it's crazy but that shit is wicked good! I totally forgot to get it when Dep and Kee were out here but next time we will get taco pizza and then have Taco-In-A-Bag! I am getting pumped for spring even though it has only been like 15 degrees lately. I dont know I just keep thinkin of all the things we are gonna do and the people we are goin to see! Oh so I was talking to Bobby H last night and he said that when they bought their house it was only on the market for 2 hours I was like no fair! One just came on the market that looks good so we need to go take a gander cuz we need a house! Well I guess thats all for now more later

so

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 18:29:10 GMT

So yesterday I totally forgot to mention that nate had to go to WI for some dumb meeting on tues. He said he would be back yesterday evening but because of the weather he had to stay the night in Fargo boo. Whats funny though is that Lola sleeps better and in her own bed when he isnt home! Plus I get to stretch out a lil but I dont like sleeping alone :( ( well sort of JJ sleeps in our bed ) Anyway I am so sore today! I been working out to my Jillian Micheals Dvd and it's not hard but there is weight involved and I'm pretty sure theirs are like 2lbs the ones I'm using are 5lbs! So I'm kickin my own ass on this LOL! My guns are hurting haha. Well now that Lola is better she is bein such a brat my goodness! Just cuz she couldnt be herself for a couple days its like all the evil balled up inside and is now coming out in full force. Cant wait till nate gets home :) Which now that I look at the time he should be home any min! On to other things, I have been having really weird dreams lately! Dreams with my exs in them and just like weird things goin on. Like the dream I had last night , Joe was in it and we were up in a tree talking , but I dont remember what about. Then two nights ago I had a dream with dax in it and it was weird too. I dunno what my brain is doin but I wonder if it has something to do with nate being gone Idunno. Well I will do some investigating and figure it out. Anyway this is getting boring even for me hahaha More later........... oh hows that for punctuation Dep :)

:(

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 01:43:13 GMT

Ok so the other night Nate and i went to this place called Caspers East 40 OMG we had sushi, soooooo good! And then I had the Filet minot so f'n good! holy crapoli that place is so fricken good but a lil pricy but i totally told Nate he better take me there more often cuz its the shizz! Anyway Papa just came out of his room and said that he just got off the fone with our realtor and the house we were goin to make an offer on was sold today i feel like I want to cry! Nathan said he was goin to make an offer yesterday well so much for that! Now we have to look at more f'n houses!!!! What a nightmare! Nate said he's so sick of looking at houses but I have looked at at least twice as many houses as he has so how do you think I feel! So here we go again grrr. I swear Nate is one of the biggest procrastinators I've ever met and when he finds out he is gonna flip but it's his own fault so there :) real mature I know but that's how I feel cuz I keep telling him and he keeps procrastinating. I just want a house that fits our family that we can afford, is that too much to ask seriously! I'm just so fed up with it all! Anyway I don't really have much else right now so more lata

Man this is poopy literally

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 22:28:51 GMT

So today is another day and everyone is sick! Poor Lola was up puking and pooing everywhere last night which means I was up all night cleaning :( I feel so bad for her! She has never really puked and she was so scared and sad poor lil thing. I wish I could be sick for her even though I hate bein sick and especially puking I'd rather it be me than her. And Nate is sick , feeling icky so he can't help and I am just praying that JJ does not get sick! So Nate said he's gonna take me out for sushi tonight but we'll see Cuz right now he's on his way to have drinks with his dad. Plus he doesnt feel good so why would he want to chance sushi? I dunno. I just finished this awesome book and just started in on the next one in the series. I have been thinking about a job and what I wanna do for a job. I dont really want to go back to the restaraunt business but it's easy for me and I am good at it. I am already gonna work at the page for their x-mas party but that is a ways from now, but I am excited cuz Easton said that we will make like 3-5 hundo so thats the cats pajamas! But until then I am SOL cuz my unemployment just got cut off so no money goin into my account :( Even though Nate makes enough money for everything I just dont like having to ask someone for money! I would like to have my own and do with it what I want. I dont wanna be like can I have some money so I can buy shoes or a purse or some dumb book or movie that Nate doesnt like or something. I mean cuz he says he'll give me money and/or buy me whatever I want but then when I am like ooo I want _____ he's like really?, no dude thats dumb or whatever. Even if he isnt like that about whatever I just am very proud and independant and it kills me to have to ask for stuff . On a different note, Papa has been talking bout goin on the boat when it gets nicer which makes me long for spring even though we still have a few months before we can even put the dock back in the water :( Im cold I want it to be warm already! I am losing momentum on the whole working out too. I was sick last week so no working out and the week before that I was so busy I barely had time to pee LOL. But I hope I can motivate and get back on it, I just got my workout dvd in the mail finally I'm excited, but I gotta get to it and I know I know I should be doin that then instead of messin round on this computer but it's a lil difficult when Lola wants to help or work out with me which to her means right at my feet! I have to wait till both the kids are asleep which means in the middle of the night ooooorrrr the rare occasion that they both take a nap at the same time. But I am determined to get back on that horse! Well I am off to clean more

Valentines Day

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 23:35:15 GMT

So I'm gonna start by saying if you're sick of my complaining then continue no further, but I need to get stuff off my chest and this is my outlet. So obviously it's Valentines Day woopidy f'n doo! Just as I anticipated it has sucked nuggets! Did I get anything , no. Did we do anything, no. Nate's folks had plans for us all to go have lunch but that wasn't what Nate wanted to do so noone got to go thnx! So I'm talking to people and reading online everyone is getting at least a card right, not me. Ya know I mostly expected it but I thought after 4yrs he would realize that even a homemade card would be soemthing that would put a smile on my face. Now not only is it sad but it is also embarassing b/c we live with his folks and here I sit with nothing and all blah and there he is all whatever. Lola and I made cards for him and the grandparents and we sent out valentines to our loved ones and here I sit. Whatever like I said I'm just sick of wanting something I know I'm not gonna get. Then I get down on myself for hoping and I look like a schmuck cuz I get all emo and just sit here withdrawn. How does a person not understand when someone blatently says it hurts my feelings when____, or I dont feel like you care when _____. Instead they continue along the way they always have. Then when it becomes a problem then they say well why dont you tell me these things HA payattention DUH! I'm sick of telling you I'm sick of having to tell you and I'm sick of you not taking it seriously! So here I sit boo hooing on LJ to those who already know and do payattention so I guess that makes me blue in the face. I wish it wouldnt get to me the way it does but no, I'm the lame sap who wants emotional acknowledgement instead of extravagant gifts or instead of just thinking of it as " just another day" So thats my cry baby entry for today I cant think of anything else to talk about so I will just write more when I find something. Dueces.

boo

Thu, 12 Feb 2009 14:44:41 GMT

So I've been sick for the past couple days :( It's no fun. What sux is that I wanna just sleep for like a day and a half but of coarse no can do with 2 kids. Not only that but I dont even get regular amount of sleep, I get about 2-3hours at night and if Im lucky a 20-30min nap during the day. I'm pretty much runnin on empty and I feel like poop. On a different note I am reading this awesome book series (thanx steph ) it helps take my mind off things. And no it's not "Twilight" if anyone was thinking that. I alredy ready those like 2-3 times LOL! Steph sent me the first 2 in this series and I just went the other day and bought the other 4 so now I got something to read for awhile! It's better than watching tv i guess but I still just sit around , coarse there's really not much else to do when it's only 20 degrees or less outside everyday. Yeah thats right it's f'n cold up here! I am still adjusting a lil. It's funny the other we all went out and it was like 36 or so and Nathan was like " You are a north dakotan look at you with just a sweater on" I was like its warm its 30 something out! Hahaha never thought I'd be the one sayin 30 was warm! So Valentines day is coming up and so far no plans :( Prolly not gonna be any either cuz Nate is closing at work. Typical I always tend to have not so great holidays and yet I still look forward to them thinkin oh well maybe this year it'll be good. Silly me. After what almost 27 years of life you would think I would realize that I shouldnt get my hopes up for things , well I do and then more times than not I get disappointed. Well lifes full of disappointments! So Nate was like you know what I want for v-day, Blah blah blah, I was like ok. You know what I want for V-day, a diamond necklace, he was like no. So then his mom was like you should get her a diamond ring and he was like yeah right, WTF. Seriously I just feel like sometimes I work harder and care more about this relationship than he does and I know he's a dude and sometimes guys are just like duh but seriously we have been together for almost 4 years now and have 2 kids! His friend Hutchie met his GF like maybe 2 - 21/2 years ago and he done proposed and they are getting married this july! And hutchies GF told me that Nate is the one who convinced Hutchie to propose WHAT are you serious. So how lame do I look! right like Hows my life? I swear I wish I could read his mind and know wtf he thinks of me cuz it doesnt seem like he thinks much of me IDK! And it's like I do everything for him I do whatever he asks and then some! I'm a full time mom to our kids,even when he's home I do pretty much everything for the kids, I clean, I cook, like what the hell am I getting out of the deal? I mean I got 2 awesome beautiful kids but it just makes me think of that song what have you done for me lately. It's funny cuz lately even when we go to the bar I pay for the drins all night I asked myself why I couldnt answer so this past sunday when we went out I was like you're buying and he was like oh like he was kinda annoyed ya know what whatever! Ok so that was my lil rant ,anyway Iam excited to hopefully be getting a house soon! Living with no bills and no rent is nice but it does come at a price sort of. Like no privacy and people are always touching and moving my stuff which , being OCD, drives me crazy! Well my tummy is starting to get woozy again so more later!

Been Awhile

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 23:57:25 GMT

Oh wow so it's been like another year and i prolly dont even have any friends anymore but meh thats ok. I totally forgot bout this but then steph reminded me and said i should get back on here so here i am. Anyway so like everyone knows ALOT can happen in a year! Since last time I wrote I found out I was pregnant again. Nathan Lola and I (all prego) moved to North Dakota which i where Nate is from. Then I had Justin James our lovable lil son. So for those of you wondering; no Nate and I still aren't married. But we moved up here to give the kids a better livin sit. and better education. We've been here since Aug of last year and have been house hunting b/c we are goin to buy a house yay! So today I think we found the one we want so we are goin to make an offer! Quick description:
Enjoy warm summer evenings on the deck in your private, fenced back yard. This home is located in a nice neighborhood in south Bismarck close to the walking path, schools and shopping. This home boasts a beautiful 2 tiered deck in back yard complete with an additional deck off dining area for your grilling convenience. This home has updated floor coverings, new appliances, wood burning stove, wet bar, oversized double garage with workshop area, sprinkler system & private fenced yard. Don't miss out!

Just a few things we need to check out about it , nothing big , and hopefully it'll be ours. Anyway it's been a cold winter and I havent gotten out much. I am deffinately goin to get a job soon cuz my kiddies are driving me nuts! Lola just turned 3 and she is a lil pistol I can barely keep up with her! But so far ND is a pretty nice place to be. We are teaching Lola to iceskate. Well Nate is cuz I dont know how LOL. She's only been twice but she is already doin pretty good! I'm excited for her! Anyway livin with Nathans folks is getting old I mean I am so grateful to them for everything and I love them but I am just ready to have our own place where its just our lil family! Nates folks love the kids and they just let Lola do whatever she wants so she's become pretty spoiled it's kinda anoying when I know she knows between right and wrong but just doesnt care! But soon enough she will realize that mom and dad are the ones who make the rules! Speaking of the kids they are demanding my attention now so I will write more later and I am goin to really try to make regular updates.

It's been a long time

Tue, 08 Jan 2008 21:55:05 GMT

So its been like a year since i last wrote on her well 51 weeks so yeah forever ago. But with a growing munchkin it's hard to get any time to do anything. So things are goin ok, at work i got promoted to mngr then they made me go back to bartending and lately i have been serving again so i guess you could say i got demoted but not cuz anything i did wrong but because corperate sux. Any way Lola is getting big she is talking and repeating lots! Nathan is doin good they are trying to promote him to gm sometime soon. He says I should just find a different job but what job will i be able to get that keeps me from putting Lola in daycare prolly not any. Working where i work i can take Lola with me until Nate can get her I dont have a babysitter and frankly i would rather not try to find one. I like the arrangement we have goin. I just wish it could be a lil easier to just get a diff. job cuz i could use one. I love my store and the people i work with but right as i was getting caught up and being able to pay bills and still have money left over they send me back down the ladder. and teh worst part is that's it's not anyone in store who did it it's all the higher ups who dont want to pay me hourly but dont want to send me to management training either so why not just push me back down to the positions i busted my ass to move up from, makes sense right. Anyway on to other things, Nates folks have been visiting very couple/ few months and we go up there every so often. We've been talking bout moving to bismark in the spring. Ya see uncle Paul just passed away before x-mas and he left nate some money, so he wants to buy a house. The way i see it is if we are eventually gonna move up there anyway why not use that money to buy a house in nodak where we will get more house for less money then buy a house here where it's a crap shoot whether or not we will make money on it before we sell it to move up there. See we could get twice the house for half the money up in bizz so thats my outlook on it why wouldnt u take the better deal right. Then we can figure out the whole work thing out there but at least we'll an awesome house and pay the same monthly as we do for rent on the crap house we live in now. The only thing i dred is having to pack all our shit and move it all that way then unpack it oh thats no fun but then i wont have to do it again! So we have been working on potty training the lil princess and it seems to be goin very slowly but all kids are different and i hope that she gets better at it soon cuz she's almost two and it sux buying diapers all the time. Shes so amazing though she is smart and pretty and she is independant when it comes to alot of stuff, i'm not trying to brag on my own kid or anything i am just so amazed everyday that nate and i created someone so awesome! Well speaking of the lil mischeife maker here she is trying to use the computer while im on it so i guess thats the end of this one. More soon i promise

long winter I'm ready for spring

Sat, 13 Jan 2007 20:32:11 GMT

So it's been a long winter and holiday season so far! While christmas and everything else was goin on we had to move. We moved into a 3 bedroom house which is super nice. Lots more room for the lil one to run around and a big back yard for her too! Now we have to unpack which i have no motivation to do. I wish everything would unpack itself and be where I want it! But that would make life waaaaaaaay too easy. So I'm doin a lil at a time and it seems to be taking forever. With work and everything i just don't have much time to spend unpacking. Anyway about work I am goin to be transfering to the northglenn store 1. because there will be an opening in two weeks 2.because it'll be better money 3. because I have to because nate is finally goin to M.I.T. (bout time!) Christmas was good and Lola had lots of fun. New years was cool except i didn't get to spend it with nate cuz he was at work boo. Nate went on a boys trip to vegas this weekend so it's just me and the kid all weekend. Nathan told me I need to relax this weekend but there is sooooo much to do in the house. So much unpacking and organizing that needs done. The snow lately has been driving bonkers! It's too much I know I know, it's Colorado but I just don't like snow all that much. Especially since i have barely any winter clothes. I need some longjons that would make things better and a winter coat and I need like a hundred sweaters and sweatpants, then I would be good to go..... oh no wait also I need like 500 pairs of gloves and 200 hats then I would be good. Anyway Lola's 1st b-day is coming up and I have no idea what to do or get for it! So much to do and so lil time! Well thats all for now I will write more when I get more then one day off in a row again.

Merry Christmas!

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 23:07:29 GMT

merry christmas merry christmas but i think i'll miss this one this year! Ok so christmas spirit, what happened to it? i'm not sure but this year has severly lacked in the spirit department! I'm trying to stay positive but it's hard when everyone is so rude and mean and has no christmas spirit! Anyway I think and hope that this snow we have received will whip people into christmas shape! Be kind be caring be loving be giving and most of all be happy! It's chrismas season and what could make you feel better than giving to others whether they are family or strangers, whether it's a dollar or a smile! It's what christmas is all about not about gifts or getting stuff or spending tons of money or goin into debt..... It's about caring and sharing and spending time with the ones we love and showing others that there is still kindness in this cruel world! So please be kind be generous and please please please be happy this season because anger and unhappiness is contagious and i dont want any thanks! Peace love and Merry Christmas!

cool cool

Tue, 12 Dec 2006 21:45:06 GMT

So Lola and I went to the play date today at the breakfast nook at cherry creek mall! It was so cool! Lola was walking all over the place and loved being around other kids! she had so much fun I could tell she was squieling(sp?) and waving at all the kids. A bunch of the parents were like how old is she... and she's already walking? I was like yeah she wanted to walk so i said go for it and now she's all about walking! Everyone said how precious she is and it made me feel so good that I'm not the only one impressed by my own daughter! One lady told me her son that was there just started walking and he just turned 1yr. Any way I'm glad that we went and I hope to make it to future play dates with the CO kiddos!

finally an update!

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 19:23:15 GMT

Ok so it's been awhile I know! But here I am again. So Lola is now walking and she has two teeth on the bottom of her mouth! Nathan's folks came out to visit a couple weekends ago and they brought me a car! It's a 91 Honda accord and it is sweet ! They took such good care of it so it is in prime condition! It only has 100 thousand miles on it( for a honda that is superb!) And it is the first car I've owned that has a cd player in it! And it has a sun roof! oh the heat in it cranks too! i'm so excited about it all i have to do is get it in my name but I need money to do that and money is something I don't have right now boo! especially with christmas coming up i am so broke! Anyway we went to Iowa for thanksgiving and that was awesome! I wish nate coulda gone with us but he had to work of coarse as usual. So i'm trying to get this administration job with a friend so keep fingers crossed for me! I can't even pay rent with what im making at bennigans anymore! Plus ther is so much drama and stress there I just cant do it any more! So yeah I think that's all that's really new my way and hope all is well for y'all and happy christmas season to all!

Tue, 03 Oct 2006 19:49:32 GMT

so i so thought that i had updated since vegas but i guess i was wrong. so here it is: Vegas was awesome we did the whole family thing with nates family during the day and then nate, krista(nates sis) and i went out drinkin and gamblin at night! we ate at batistas again, YUM! we also went to the puma store but that was a lil bit of an agrevating experience, so i wont really get into it. but then i went to the childrens place and bought lola a pumpkin outfit for halloween

So F'n cute<a href="http://photobucket.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v436/Juliegem/100_0745.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"></a><lj-cut>and i got a puma coat and a watch. what sux is that i was bein rushed the whole time i was shopping. all i wanted to do is shop on that trip and maybe gamble a lil well i ended up doin what everyone else wanted and when i did get to shop i was pushed to hurry up boo. Anyway since then we've take lola to the museum and to picnic at bear creek, both were tons of fun! Steph and kairi met us at the museum it was totally fun i havent been there since i was like ten or somethan. we did this health thing and of coarse it said i was over weight but i found out that im more over weight then i thought and that i had gained like 3lbs since i last found that i had gained like 5 pounds. grrr. which reminds me in vegas nathan bought me a massage. oh man the best shit evah i never had a professional massage and i felt like a whole new person afterwards! ok so this is getting a lil long any way i just thought id update and tell yall vegas was once again awesome!

weekend

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 19:20:03 GMT

So this weekend was pretty awesome! The whole family went to elitches. I'm talkin mom, Kody, Steph, Kairi, Nathan, Lola, and I all went with friends johnny and jenni. It was such a blast! Then we went to sanchos to have a couple before payin like 5 bucks a beer. Then went to the taste to watch big bad voodoo daddy yay, kicked ass. That was all on sunday! On sat we went to moms and I saw the incredibles for the first time, good movie! Then yesterday even though I was supposed to work closing i gave it up cuz i was goin through some stuff, so i got an extra day off. So I've decided no drinkin till vegas on the 15th. Igot way too gone on wed at Tool (oh yeah I saw Tool on wed!) and way to wasted at the taste. Oh yeah our friends John amy and rich met us at the taste. Anyway so i'm gonna try to taker easy. I just tend to get way too excited when I drink with nathan and then I over do it, so i'm gonna chill. I am excited for vegas I cant wait to hang with nates family and he promised that we will go shopping at the Puma store on the strip I can't wait!

Lately

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 20:15:11 GMT

Even though the guys are crazy even though the stars are blind, If you show me real love baby I'll show you mine! So I have a new found love of Paris Hilton (don't hate) I dunno what it is I used to not be able to stand her. I mean i've watched the simple life since the first season but i always liked nicole and not paris. then i hear this song that paris sings and bam i love the chick im watchin all the shows on vh1 about her and shit. I guess i just developed respect for her since she's about makin her own money and not livin off her parents, even though she is still suppah rich! So yeah if you think im lame i dont care cuz im (wo)man enough to admit that I love Paris hilton! yay. Any way I also just wanted to say somethan about the post from cora13 i love the 90's almost more than i love the 80's and i love 80's! awww reminisce, LOVE IT! Oh yeah N.K.O.T.B. 4evah!!!!!! LOL

me again

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 20:55:18 GMT

So we went to ND for a week, it was so f'n awesome! I had so much fun it was kinda like old times but with new people. Nathans parents pretty much horded Lola all week so nathan and I went out every night with his friends it was so much fun! The wedding we went to was beautiful. It was a catholic wedding and honestly I was suprised I didn't burst into flames when I walked through the doors of that church, but I didn't and I did enjoy the wedding and I did tear up but I didnt cry. Then the reception was super awesome, there's an old german tradition that when someone gets married afterwards everyone takes shot of red eye and they all use the same glass. Well not everyone used the same glass but we all did take shots of red eye and it was so awesome. The elks(where the reception was) wouldn't allow the red eye in the establishment so they had a camper trailer out in the parkin lot where they had a massive suply of red eye, so i made a couple trips outside hehe. Anyway we are back now and back to the same old jobby job, boo. It's good to be home and in my own bed and with my fam but this stupid job is the thing I wish I didn't have to come back to. But I have people workin on gettin me a better job. Oh yeah and with this whole non smokin thing mmy job is even worse then before cuz now the bar is in rotation and now i get all those horrible non smokers who thinks the world revolves around them and run you then tip you a dollar on like an f'n 40 or 50 dollar bill! Not sayin that all non smokers are like that cuz I know they are not, but the ones who are really get me heated they are the main reason that that stupid ban even passed and they think it's fair for them to make decisions for us but god forbid if anyone makes any kind of decision for them those damn hipocryts! So anyway now my job is even more shit to do for the same $2.13 an hour and even more stress which I could totally do with out thanx! Well i guess I'll just get over it until I find something better. Yesterday we went to moms and Nathan was off so he came with! Yay it was so nice to have him spend time with all of us cuz he works so much that he barely ever gets to do stuff with us as a family, so it was nice! On another note Lola is growing way fast and it's so amazing I love her so entirerly much!!!

check it out dude

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 06:05:51 GMT

You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.
Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.

You are best known for: your touch

Your dominant state: changing

What Type of Weather Are You?

wow long time

Thu, 22 Jun 2006 07:06:52 GMT

So it's been awhile but here I am again! yay! Anyways so my bday just passed, I spent all day in the car driving to Iowa. Which is ok cuz we had a good weekend! Lola was awesome! She is such a show off! She's 5 months goin on 13yrs, I swear! She decided to smack a bottle right out of my hands the other day and gave me the F U look omg i was shocked! She's two seconds from crawlin she was so close the other day i thought she had it but not quite. Anyway tomorrow is blackhawk, hell yes! I haven't really been able to celebrate the drinkin way so it's on yo! And Nathans goin with yay! Oh so at work one of my managers is a total pucker butt and has started ruining all my plans that bastard! He is such an anal retentive butt! He always has all these lil projects for me to do besides all the other shit I do for that place. So now he's startin to ruin my family plans because he's started givin nathan shit too! What I don't understand is why are we spendin all our time doin his lil projects while he sits around and barks out orders with not so much as a thank you or good job ever to anyone! Moral is goin down and people are losin motivation and i can't do a damn thing about a damn thing because he's a manager and I'm just one of the bartenders. See and Nathan, as much pull as he has, can't really do anything either cuz he's just a key employee and not a real manager. BOO. So the whole job thing right now is sort of starting to tire. Which makes me so glad that it's summer because for me and my family that always means vacation vacation vacation! I'm starting to not even worry about the whole money part of it cuz it's not like I make so much money when I'm at work so whats a few days off here and there. Besides it keeps me from killing half the staff do to the stress levels bein way too high. I can't wait till the 3rd of July when we go to north dakota for a week!

wow

Thu, 25 May 2006 07:32:22 GMT

ok I know it's been awhile and i'll catch ya up in a min. but first i just wanna say Fuck Anyone Who Fucks With My Family!!! Those people piss me the hell off! and if i could i would beat the piss out of alllll of them the bastards! wew ok sorry it just seems that lately people wanna be fuckin with my fam.(not me nathan and lola though) So i'm gettin real aggrivated at the liyin cheatin scheamin assholes! Nobody messes with my friends or family without messin with me and trust me they don't wanna mess with me! So any way this is goin to be a very eventfull summer. We got so many vacations to take I hope Lola is up to it hehe. She's gettin so big i can't even believe! She's almost crawlin i see it in the near future, I can't wait but i can cuz i know as soon as she can that's three times the shit she can get into and that worries me. So she and i are goin to the fam reunion in iowa in a couple weeks sio she can meet all her great gran folks! i'm so excited! then we are goin to N.D. in the begginin of july for nathans good friends wedding. In sept we are goin to vegas. And im sure more stuff will pop up in between all of those lol. Lots of time off and not alot of money but we'll work it out somehow. Nathan makes enough for all that stuff but i really need business to pick up or i'm gonna have to make a change. Oh so omg lately all my pals from back in the day are findin me on myspace it's soooooo crazy i figured i'd never talk to some of those folks again it's soooo awesome! Myspace might be gay but then so am i cuz i think it's awesome for keepin in touch or gettin back in touch with people. Even if the news peeps are worried and scared about it lol. Any way it's late so im gonna hit the hay peace

oh my

Tue, 02 May 2006 12:22:29 GMT

Been quite awhile but here is another one yay! So i've been working about 6 days a week and lots of weekend stuff goin on. Weeekend before last nate's rents were in town we all went to a rockies game fun ! Last weekend we celebrated nate's b-day at blackhawk fun except i donated like 30 bucks. This weekend is the MS walk. Wow I am doin lots o stuff lately, although it is fun it's hard to balance with work especially when they are workin me like a muel i barely have the energy for anything else but i'm doin my best. I love doin stuff especially with my fam so I won't let work get me down or keep me from doin that stuff. But I feel like I don't ever really get to see my yitta yoya nate gets way more time with her than me cuz of work and i'm kinda jealous. She responds way better to him than she does me and I know part of it is cuz she's just a daddys girl but also part of it is cuz she never sees me any more! Speakin of she is waking up so I'll spill more later